Yeah Yeah~ I'm back from Port Dickson's Teenz church camp. woohoo.
But then, school is starting tomorrow and I have not done any of my homework. Oh dear.

I went with a really-not-very-excited mood, but came back with a heart of flame.
It was really really very fun. Haha..

The theme of the church camp was ENTHEOS.
In Greek for "in God" and the origin of the word enthusiasm.
It's a joy, an excitement to live within God's presence.

You wouldn't belive what I've learnt and what I've done.
Haha.. The first thing I learnt and the favourite was...

Imperfect people does imperfect things.

Nobody is perfect.
We are human. It's normal for human to make mistakes. Human makes mistakes all the time. Almost like breathing. It's normal for human to breathe. Correct?
You don't blame somebody just because they breathe, my dear.

And to forgive those that have hurt you.

The Pastor shared about forgiveness.
He asked a question: "Is it worth it to be sad, angry, upset, just because some other people made a mistake?"

Answer: "No!"

He asked us to write down anybody's name that we hated on a piece of paper.
Everybody was thinking really hard for someone that they hated. I was too.
Suddenly, two names appeared on my mind. I won't say who they are here, you may ask me if you want to know. =)

And I thought: "I already forgive these two people, and I don't hate them anymore, Everything's fine between us! But why is their names appearing on my mind now?"
And, I didn't write their names down, I just kept quiet and followed Pastor James' prayer to forgive these people.He wanted us to follow his prayer.

He said:" Dear Lord Jesus, I want to forgive XXX because he had done XXX, and I want to bless him, XXX."

And I followed.

Everyone was having their eyes shut, and heads bowed. I was too. And i tried to follow the pastor'd prayer, and wondering whether to say these two people's name. I kept thinking that I don't hate them anymore, that I have forgiven them.
And suddenly, the pastor said something that shocked me.

"I know that among of you, you have to forgive XXX. But you have not written his name down, and You will have to forgive these two people."

Seriously, I was shocked. He was talking about me.From infront of the stage. I was behind there. Sitting in the third row, and he knew that I was the one that didn't write the names and kept quiet. Cool right?

I was stubborn even after the pastor said that. I still kept quiet and sat at my own place.
And then my leader came to me. I told her about it, and she asked me to do everything all over again. Write their names down, and start praying that I want to forgive them, and bless them.
As I prayed, a lot of visions that I've been hurt by them came to me and I started crying.I
realized...I haven't really forgave them. I still think of the hurts they've done.I was angry at them.I scold them, and I wasn't happy whenever I saw them.

And then, God spoke to me, and told me I'd forgive them, and love them as I love myself.

Okay, and that was the end of it. I forgave them. There was a feeling of freedom and joy.
And this time, I really forgave them. The hurt wasn't there anymore. I wasn't angry with them anymore. It's like you've taken Panadol Actifast and the pain just went away. Even better, the pain poof-ed away. Praise the Lord!

I'll update more about the camp when I have time. Hahas. Too long for this post.

*I am free.*

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