Feeling seriously out of place today.

so random. = =

And owh yea. found this very long time ago post of mine. I'm gonna post it again, this time,here. lol.It was on August 3rd, about 2 months away from my PMR.Don't quite remember what had happend.Memories fade, you know.That time i had my nice long hair.I remember that I was still like the same old me, able to walk away with my head held high.I was still behaving like a kid.It's weird how 2 months of long holiday can change my character yea.I feel grown-up already.Like, Oh gosh. Vanessa grew -up? Serious? ; Now, yes.

And now, for the long lost post.

Windy.Hot.
Sad.Blank.

well..evrytime i write here,there will be sumtin that im sad or confused bout..haih...
dun evn noe what im thinkin oso...kinda blank dis week...trial exam comes nxt week..Pmr comes in 2 months time..

I made him lose his feelings for me.wtf.wad i did?ok.if he thinks i did nth..so be it..
just forget bout:
+the days n nights i did cry because of him.
+the days i did his hmwks fr him thru the nyt.
+ the days i stayed up late just to talk to him on the phone.
+the days i cared bout him.
+the days i worried fr him.
+the days i stayed back in skol jus to acompany him altough he thinks that im nt stayin bak fr him.so whats wif those friday?!
+the days i tought of him.
+the days i got scolded n reprimanded + grounded cos of tokin to him on the phone fr hours.
+the days i went thru without him when i needed him.sick+sad.
+the days i got scared when his angry.
+the days i tried so hard to make him happy.
+the days he threw me away.
+the days he promised me to love me forevr
+the days he promised to be there.

and thank him about:
+loving me.
+being sad cos of me.
+makin me sad cos of him.
+being angry.
+acompanying me.
+gave me his promise.
+making me cry.
+making me feel empty again.
+his valentines present fr me.
+cheering me up all the time.
+showing me his moody face.
+bringing my books fr me.
+shielded the rain fr me.
+changing ur acts fr me.
+became a gud boy.
+walking away when i needed him.

saying sorry to him:
+sorry fr cryin because of me.
+sorry fr cumin early to skol early.
+sorry i din noe hw to cheer u up.
+sorry i din noe hw sad u were.
+sorry i pulled back my hand.
+sorry i din say yes evrytime.
+sorry i hav reasons fr nt saying yes.
+sorry i said yes to help u the 1st time.
+sorry i said yes to help u the 2nd time.
+sorry i din learn hw to say no.
+sorry i din show my love enuf fr u,
+sorry i din make you think i love you.

pls do:
*pls dun evr cry again.
*pls forget about evrything.
*pls be happy.^^

总觉得我们之间，留了太多空白格。
也许你不是我的，分开或许是选择，但他也可能是我们的缘分。

well...thats the end of this.


whoo. that was childish. isn't it?

-There's nothing I can do to change what happens anyway.So,I'll just work harder to make it less worse.-

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