Seesh.I hate myself for doing things that weren't supposed to do and hurt myself in the end.
I know what would probably happen, and know it would hurt myself.

I STILL DO IT.

Eff.I hate this.It's like I've learnt my lesson, but then again, i do it again.
GAHHHHH.

I know it's gonna hurt.I know what would happen.I know everything.
Yet, i choose to close my eyes, my ears, and bring myself to a deep deep hole and jump into it.
And after i climb out of the hole, I tend to jump into it again.I really don't know how many times this happened.I ended up with bruises and scars.

No matter what I do, Im still empty in the inside.
I tell people im fine.But really, im not.
Behind every smile, there's just that something there.
This is pathetic; I know.
I don't have to do this; I know.
I can just walk away full of pride; I know.
But i can't do it.

You'll probably be thinking: This girl damn useless sia.
Yeah.She is.Probably the most pathetic girl you could ever meet.
She even wakes up and cry in the middle of the night.
She does stupid things and are not apreaciated .And in the end, she got herself hurt.

Forget it.As if like what i do now would help.
If anything does, tell me.

I remember those good memories.
The bad ones; i just let them go.

Will you stay?

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