It's Earth Hour today, lights off!

Today was Anugerah Cemerlang..Not bad la..But the dissapointing part is we didn't get the pewter trophy we wanted!GAH. And also, no money. I'm so money-minded sia.

And only today, i found that i can't smile or laugh really from the heart anymore.

I find my smiles are sooo fake.seeesh.
Most of the photos taken today by the teachers, I didn't smile like i use to when taking photos..
I only gave fakey smiles.It sucks.

He's up and running already and I'm still sitting here crying on the floor.
I've had enough.I can't let myself be like this anymore.
I've lost 3kg in the past week.and shit.it's not really healthy.I just don't eat as much.But then,3kg doesn't show any difference.

Oh well.Everythings cool as long as im getting thinner. Don't care .

Really, I've tought it through already, so..it ends here.I think.
Altough im not sure how long it'll take me to forget someone, but as long im trying, it's cool.

It's not all he's fault afterall, It's mine for a quarter of it.
He's not a bad guy, I made him one.
It's okay for him to leave me, I understand.People around me should too.
He has his own life now, and it doesn't relate to me anymore i think.
We'll still work together in a commitee, and it maybe only this year.
And his friends, don't isolate him, he's not as bad as you think.
He's lonely in the inside..maybe.


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Who's that person next to you, did she make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you.
I spend long nights by myself, erasing our memories a thousand times

Don’t ever look back and leave me.
Don’t find me again and live on.
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories with you.
I can bear it in some way; I can stand in some way.
You should be happier than me.

If we pass by each other on the street,
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to.
If you keep thinking about our past memories, I might go look for you secretly.

Always be happy with her, so I won’t ever change my mind.
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever.
Show me how well you can live.

You should always be like that bright sky, like the white clouds.
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened.

I hope you will live better after you have left me.
Please forget that you ever knew me and move on with your life.
Those tears will dry away as time passes by.

It's something I'll be able to live with.
You have be happier than me. =)

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I truly wish you'll see this.

Vanessa grew up today. Teehee.




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