My ear is still inflammed.Ouch.
This is so damn terrible lerh.
Give me antibiotics..My goodness!!!

Hmm...anyway...PMR result day!!!
Wahaha.I was like so nervous lerh.
My goodness.So high just morning.
Screaming like a bit crazy..hahas.

whee~ 8A's...Finally lerh! waited for whole two months for this day.
Worked hard for whole 3 years for this day!@
wheee...straight A's!!!

Hmm.3years passed lerh.It's like ...UPSR was not far away, and PMR came.
3years...Many things happend owh.
and it just passed like that!
Anyway, I'll think I'll do a summary of 2008 tommorow.
Anyone of you have any topic...come tell me owh..hahas.

Oh well.Grandpa say going to treat me dinner lerh...cos of my straight A..
Hahax.

Neway, till the holiday ends, I still need someone to text ,call,msn, me...ish..
im soo bored.
I can't stand a time alone!

Song of the day!
Broken Strings- James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado.
Sing A long Song- 方大同

Ish.This two songs are soo nice.>< kays.End of blogpost.


*I'll love you a little less than before.*


*一年的时间对一个人的生命来说，占了多少分量？； 而一个人在另一个人的生命里，能占多少分量？*




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Hey..It's my birthday today~

Celebrated yesterday anyways.

Thanks to zup zup group and weiqing~



Wakaka.We ate steamboat together leh...hahax.

But all of their faces are like: This is the last meal for Vanessa.She is going to be dead tomorrow.



All shitty faces.Not high at all.Ish.

They were scared of being too noisy to interrupt my parents.

Walao eh.Seesh.Make me so emo!



Another thing..How come everything spoil when they come har?


Anyway...Slept about 4am yesterday with yiyong n jiamin...hahas...
Took loads of weird photos...hahaha.


After half an hour, my birthday would officially end ; and im officially 15!=)

Thanks for everybody who wished me happy birthday~

By the way, Im kinda dissapointed tough.
My b'day endin ler lerh...
I still haven receive that 1 birthday wish.
It would be nice for that wish now.
Sobb.

Oh well.My bad.




*Happy Birthday me.*

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Stupid flu.
Make my nose block.
Make my ears inflammed.
So painful..T.T

Hmm.Last night was fun tough.
Rain + barbeque. How tragic. How romantic.
The fire just won't light up.
The chicken wings just won't cook.
The food all drenched wet.As well as us.
The watermelons went super juicy.Thanks to acid rain.
Those chicken wings are so poorthing.They fell on the floor.><

My hair went white cause of tepung.
My pair of favorite black pants went white.
I ate a lot of tepung; they don't taste good at all.
I became a white ghost.ish.
I went home with a pair of sticky white shoes.zz

I've been talking to my plush toys.LOL.
There's a new toy for me to talk to.Hahas..
That gift exchange thingy yesterday.

Go away you stupid flu!

And i just don't understand.
Argh.Whatever.Just pray that this is not wrong.If it's wrong, I'll just fall down again.
Im ok with it.

I love my bed!

Oh well.Merry Christmas!

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Wahaha.
Im sick . Again~
Terrible sore throat.whee~

I drank a big jug of water today.kinda broke my record...i think.

I haven't bought a christmas present neh...~
What to buy?

I watched naruto like crazy today with my sister.
Shes a huge fan..i guess.
20 episodes one go finish...4hours or 5 hours i think...
watching and watching.i had nth to do anyway.

Im losing my mind today.hahas.
Anyway, i've already lost it just a week ago.
Help me find me back.xD

Bad WeiWei.I want ice cream..sob...Don't ci4 ji1 me larh...T.T

I need parties.
I'm so gonna get crazy if I continue on like this.

Everybody seems so busy this holiday...
Only me.Super free de.
Free until i want do work.
But it's like having a bomb in my head now...So painful.ish.

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I'm in love with vampires.
Whether their real or not.
whee.

Oi.Vampire.faster bite me.I want to be a vampire too.lols.
But vanessa, don't be naive.

But anyway.Vampires can't cry.How sad.
My tears came back.wheee.

My dream of being banged by a car had been stopped by my dad.Ish.
Should I be happy about this har?
If yes, tell me and I'll be happy about it.
If no, tell me and I'll try again.
And this time, I'll run.


By the way, Good Luck WeiWei.


It's christmas.Can I get a curing ice cream as my christmas present?




*I'm just a girl that is trying to not be alone and empty.*

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Ish.

So sad.So depressed.So emo.

wahaha.Im emo .



Im supposed to be excited about my b'day cause you we're going to buy me a bday present.

HAH. That present is not going to be mine anymore.

Afterall, you don't know me anymore.So why give me a present?Right?



My phone number would merely appear as some weird number you don't know on your phone.
This was what you did to the last girl.eh?
It's worse when I know how you're going to treat me.
I know so well.ugh.



I think I should cut my hair, change a name, and flee to some place that there is no possible anyone could find me.Too bad i can't do that.But cutting my hair and change a name, kinda possible for me.

I tought i was stronger.But i'm not.

I'm stubborn.I don't lose.
So do you.
That's why we both fell down.Really badly.

Oh well.
I really wish that i can fall down or hurt myself in whatever way that it was an accident.
And cause me to break my leg..hand or anything.
Then I'll have to put up a cast and not move for a week or so.
I'll be good as dead eh.
Let me try to play dead for a while.See whether am i suitable to be dead.
And I don't have to return to school until i'm supposed to.
And if i like it, I think I'll fall down more often.Unless somedody stops me to.
So i can always put on casts and play dead.

Anyway...Now i can only talk to my stuffed toys about my day and ask them questions.
They didn't respond me.Oh well.


All I want for Christmas is...Who?



*& when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory.*


*Cause when a heart breaks; it doesn't break even.*

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Ish.I really do not want to go that party tonight.
Out of the mood.
It's going to be christmas, and then my birthday, and pmr result day.
My mom asked me whether i'm excited.Let me tell you: NOT AT ALL.

These things doesn't seem to make me excited like they used to.
This sucks.I used to love christmas.A lot.
I'll be jumping around just cause my birthday is coming.But i'm not.
I'll be freaking out now if I knew my results are coming out.And I'm not.
Damn.
This just don't feel the same.

I asked God : why?
He replied : Ask yourself.

Oh well.I know the answer.God knows too.

I gave up going to that asrama school.
But now..there's nothing more here left for me.Except my friends.
Friends can wait.I'll get back to them someday.
Adrian, let's switch.I want to go KL!
But it's too late for that decision.damn.


Coke does make people cough like hell.Iced lemon tea does too.
I can't eat pineapple.Or I'll cough to death.

I'll probably burn off that piece of nice card you gave me.
But...I won't.It was something sweet you did.
And another thing.I'll think I'm going to skip my birthday after this year.
Being 15 years old it's kinda going to be the worst of my life.
I'm so going to not love my birthday anymore.



While i'm wide awake, he's no trouble sleeping.



*When a heart breaks; it doesn't break even.*




i crash.
i burn.
i cry.


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It's 12.15 am.It's friday already.
Can I not go to the party tonight?
I'm really not in the mood.ish.

You have no idea how hurtful that was.I didn't know i was so not strong enogh.
I was trying to find a OFF button on my eyes to stop the tears.
No manual.No OFF button.Didn't know what to do.
Guess how many times i poked my eyes to find that OFF button?
I didn't find it tough.Anyway..it got worse.It won't stop!
And my eyes went red instead.of course, not by the poking.
Damn it.Tell me where is that OFF button.Please?
I didn't realize that i was such a cry baby.ish.found out recently.

Hurtful words hurt people.
They make people feel sad and dissapointed.
When you break a heart...It doesn't break even.

Since I've been deleted from your life, You should stay in mine.
For how long?I don't know.We'll see.

And since poking my eyes doesn't stop the tears...Maybe doing these things will help a little.

1.I'm not eating cincau anymore.
2.I'm going to hate soya bean.
3.No more ice blended for me.
4.I'll stop eating prawns.
5.I won't eat kuey teow.
6.I'll learn to hate my bed.
7.I'm going to sleep early.
8.i'm not baking chocolate cakes anymore.
9.Lucky the astaka is going to change a view.
10.I shall hate friday's.

I think it's enough.Do you?

I'm so done with crying.If you don't care anymore, cry what?
I'm glad you got over it.Cause I'm so not done over it.
I'm stupid crying over you?
I know.

I think I'll go take a cold bath.A big bottle of coke with ice.And some pineapples.

What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're Okay?



*Cause when a heart breaks; it don't break even*


Anyway.New song.Listen bah.


i crash.
i burn.
i cry.

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Nah Nah weiqing.I'm updating mii blog .hahas.

Went to cs with jiamin,weibin,woon ann and eric yesterday.
Yay yay~ Twilight twilight~
Wahaha.Edward Cullen so handsome.hahas.
But the vampire make up...ish...so pale..but then they still have red red de.weird.
But overall..nice movie la~
Twilight vampires actually becomes shiny diamonds when under the sunlight.
How awesome is that.lols.

Kays...anyway...It was HauKit's b'day yesterday.
Bought him a bag larh..His school bag is like already rotten...Using since primary.i think.
Erm..Happy b'day Haukit~

end of yesterday's story.


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Today...
I have nth to do.
WeiBin says he's off to bambino to eat lunch...i can't go.
Anyway.Don't feel like eating larh.Totally lost my appetite today.
Oh well.Haih.
All I can do today is to blast my ears off again.HAHA.

Anyone.If you have time, you can call me,text me, or come my house.i don't mind.
I'm bored to hell.



*You seem like a nice guy.Let's be friends.*

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argh.i felt so terrible n vegetable today.
slept late.waked early.ish

today rained seh.
drank so much cold water.
made me cough like siao.

I had this dream of a nuclear bomb booming off the whole world's bad guys that bully girls.
Woohoo.Quite a nice dream.All is left is handsome and good guys..woots.
It was only a dream.Dream nia.How i wish it was true.
Anyway..guys out there..would you be the one who gets bombed into pieces or the leftovers?lols.
Think of what you did in your life bah.hehe


anyway.that retard still ignoring me.

oh well.im a retard also. yah?




i crash.
i burn.
i cry.

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Wahaha.

Is slept 2 something last night.

Feeling so damn terrible today...

Oh well.Last night will be the one last time i cry for this.

I think i've run out of tears...

Even the ice cream in my fridge are gone...sobs..

I want ice creams...at least it makes me feel better.
It wasn't supposed to be like this kay...

must sleep earlier tonight...or not i think i'll be dead by tomorrow...zz

I still didn't get to watch twilight.ish.

Ah well...forget it larh...no mood also liao.

i lost myself today.just im not on a deserted island.

I'll get over it.Woots.

Just keep myself busy today ah...and tomorrow.and next week.and next month.

Bye~

I crash.

I burn.

I cry.

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You are so going to regret this.
Yup.Im starting to get vengeful.
Ish.I have to invent an evil laugh.
I AM IGNORING YOU BACK.

Ignoring me is no fun at all.
I don't care if you think i'm simply throwing tantrums.
LOOK HERE: I DON'T CARE.
You don't too.So we're ties.

I throw tantrums.You don't like it, then don't make me to.
You made me cry.Your promises didn't work after all.
I do think that im your robot.Do this do that.I don't even get a THANK YOU for it.
You don't know me enough.Maybe you do.
I'd be happy to chat with you but you were always giving me "ooo", "en".It sulks me.okay.
So don't blame why im always nt in the mood to chat with you.You clear?
I may not know evrything about you, at least i tried.
I get frustrated when it was your fault...and then it became mine.

if your thinking, WHAT, WHY,WHERE GOT?
I don't know how to answer you, but this is my blog.
You don't have read this also.
So anyway, if you don't want to care about me anymore...go on.
You don't care anyway.

By the way...fyi ..your not going to get me back my ignoring me. HAH!
You've changed a lot.Your tired.So am i.
Since you've changed, I'll change too. Top that.
This Vanessa weren't good enough for you.

You are so going to regret this.
Im gonna let your pretty face see what im worth.

Blasting off my ears again.
I live in my own world.

In love, it's not always about what you get, but about what you give.



I crash.
I burn.
I cry.



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What is it all about being cold to people har?
Very fun is it?
You know human have feelings?
You know what is dissapointed and sad?
Damn you people who doesn't know this k.

Ignoring people really is a big big sin k.
Why don't the police catch this kind of people har?
If i got money i sure go sue people like this.
Make him go pokai.Ish.
I shall become a lawyer to sue this kind of DISSAPOINTMENT MAKER.
Someone..help me think of better names for them.

How i wish i can just poof off all my emotions. SO FUN RIGHT!
NoNo...cannot poof all away...leave on the good emotions ..i think.
But crying so fun as well...ish.
Oh well.
Life goes on.

I don't even know why im giving up going to other schools next year.
Something's stopping me.ish.
Why ah?

Oh WHATEVER.

Care so much do what?SUAK!

I'm off to boom off my earphones with MayDay's song ler~

BOOM!BOOM!

豁出去，拼了!

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Today didn't rain seh.sobs.
Hope tommorow won't rain tough.Going Port Dickson leh.
today~
i have nth to blog about.
what a lame life i have.
jap class agn lorh.learnt few sentence...zz

bored bored.
good night world.

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12am edi lorh~

He's gone already~
HAHAHA.Without a thank you.Or did he say that and i didn't get it?
OH WELL.
Altought after Yin Kuan's bday celebration he didn't reply my oso.Forget it.He's busy.
BUSY!

Today i played Wii...Damn frustrated...
*KILL!KILL!KILL!*
Whee~ frustration out ler.
WAHAHAHA~

Anyway, i dreamt of getting a D for my PMR.
BM!!!shit...I got scared and woke up...my goodness...zz
Really hope can get straight A's lorh...
Or not really wasted my hardwork leh...
Sigh`

Just now was raining...but i forgot to play with the rain...T.T
too frustrated.seesh.
Rain rain come again!!XD

Good night world~

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i really wish i can scream and shout now.
too bad it's the middle of the night.damn.

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I loved my old blogskin.ISH.
The codes went ba ba boom and gone.haih.
I did it all over again still cnt...eee.sobs.

I'll bear with this blogskin 1st...altough it's cute too.=p

*HAHA*
super high.Pinpin, thx for the CNY song..haha

went for 3rd japanese class neh~
whee~

My sister snatched my ice cream away..*SOB*
Ice cream cheers me up.Really.haha.

Im really trying too hard to be crazy.
I am crazy already what.Why try?lame me.

i should really go and cut my hair.
no courage.ANYONE OUT THERE~ SUPPORT ME LEH.

Moral value of the day:
You must say Please and Thank You whenever u ask something from people!^^
Come, Practice!!

Please!Thank You!Please!Thank You!Please!Thank You!

gOOD!Remember!!Be a good boy.

I don't even what am i blogging about again.Its just popped out my mind agn.
Oh well.

Good Night!
おやすみ なさい!

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Will grabbing people's head and bang it to the wall be fun?
Sure of course.

*HAHA*

You just don't get my humour don't you.I beat u hor!!!You baddie.

I'm sad, I'm depressed, tell me a funny joke to make me smile.
If you will fall down, i will laugh even harder.

Staying up till 2am is not a good habit.
Especially when somebody leaves you waiting.Or just ignoring .

Staying up late makes your pimples come out.

*NO NO NO!IT'S NOT GOOD!*

I not steady, you say you will die.
I kill myself, thn I'll die too!Woots!
Ouch.That hurts.

I'm not that kind of girl.
What kind anyway?
I don't even know what im blogging about.

I should cut my hair and change a name.

I want to cut my hair.

*NANANA*

My handphone is right infront of me anyway.
Should I text you?


*I'm just fine.I'm still alive.But i'm barely breathing*

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no mood.i think i'll blog later.





*hey stephen!*

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eeek.
my day kinda sucked.so boring .
Totally not in the mood jor.
seesh.

Went fr tuition today...my goodness.my maths sucked as usual.
Add maths summore.Form 4 really can go bang wall ler.

Pimple come out again.argh.

Sorry the message went too late.

lalalalalalala.

Why won't people belive me that im really not having a good mood?


Ish.WeiWei..let's go make people bang their heads on the wall!
Whooooo!



* I need a hug too*

*Come toss rocks at my window!*

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