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title: my side of story.
date: Saturday, 15 November 2008
time:18:11
tomorrow leaving for taiwan ler...miracle didn't happen.well...waited for 2 weeks.maybe it just won't happen.follow adrian de logic.let God decide.sien.

really no mood.shouldn't have sent that message.that question.it feels like his having second toughts too.but maybe he doesn't think that his giving me that feeling, if i'm correct.Don't you think so?As time passes, things change, and so does the tought.
What you said in the past are only memories for me.Am I correct?

It's ok, you can deny everything.
Cause i don't know what your thinking.I'm just guessing.Just like everytime you told me to.

What ever happened to" I'll be the one you can rely on." ?
What ever happend to" take care of you always." ?
And what ever did happend to "No matter sad or happy,healthy or sick,i will always be there for you and with you.Altough certain things i can't promise you, but i will do what i promised you.You shall never cry for me again."

I feel like punching myself in the face when i remembered all of this.
It just seemed like a bunch of crap.You told me this on a piece of paper.You were busy then. I didn't stop crying even after you gave me that note.
But after sometime, i lost all my tears.I stopped crying.Crying it's something really strange i would do by now.

You would tell me that your busy cause of a on9 game.
You would put me aside when you have your buds.
You would only come find me when you need me.
You would call me a retard.
You would not even give me a thank you as if what i did was all the reason for you.
Here's your chart of importance: 1.St.John Amb.
2.St.John Amb. Buds.
3.Your Buds.
4.JJ lin
5.Mapling.GTA.WADEVER.
and lastly.ME.(that wadevr guy who does thing for you.)

Like I said, You can deny everything.But before that,you can try and flash back a bit of yourself
in BEFORE N AFTER.See if i'm wrong.If i'm wrong, It's ok.Blame me.I don't care anymore.Yeah,if your thinking" Why are you so calculative about the past?"
If you don't like it, well shut up.And if you think that this is not the girl who LOVES YOU MORE THAN YOU DO, GO AWAY!SCRAM!!

As im writing this blog post,i bet you are having a great time with your friends.Lucky i didn't go yeah.Have fun.



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