Whee. Skipped school today. Finally a day I can sleep off all my black eye patches. Guh.
Sleeping is just some really fun activity for me now. For continously not sleeping well for at least a month. It's crazy. I know. I'm sorry Khai Xiang, I do need a major sleep.
WeiWei told me to forgive and forget yesterday. F&F.
Well, I told her I could only forgive, but not really forget.
And she said:
" 你不需要记住恋爱中的每一个细节，一件事就够了。偶尔想起并不是什么坏事。至少，你没有做过会让你愧疚的事。不要像我，我可恶过。"Meaning, "You don't have to remember every little part of everything in a relationship after it has ended. Remembering one is enough. Thinking of it occasionally isn't a really bad thing to do, at least, you have not done things that would make you feel guilty. Don't be like me, I have done bad.”
But Weiwei, for all of the bad things I claimed that I would do to hurt both of them, I didn't.
I'm way too nice to do all those stuff. Although I really have the kind of adrenaline rush to throw my shoes at both of them.I still didn't do it in the end.I really do think that I am really nice towards both of them.I even helped that little girl take out her bag from the prefect's room that day.I could have just lock her stuff there and say I don't have the keys anymore. Shit.
Imagine to see them everyday. Walking together happily and I'm one side trying to cover it all up.I talk loud, laugh loud and put on the smile as wide as it could be. But then again, it's better to have two persons happy then one, right?
Anyway, it has been almost half a year since i last ate sotong and prawns, drink soya bean, went to chungky and order a cup of ice blended, baked a cake and bring to school , or even look at my plush toys. Duh.
And and, I cut off my hair.
It used to be long. Very long. I cut my hair off, basically because it reminds me of him.
But now i realize i look better like this, that doesn't bother me anymore. Lol.
And my favourite darling, don't even bloody try to imitate what i did. It's very low down.
You would never look good to try and cut your hair short like "venessa " did. And shit.
You freakin spelled my name wrong.
It's okay. You are probably not smart enough to spell my name correctly. I forgive you.
And please, don't ever forget we were the ones who gave you the chance.
Hey, look! I forgave her. That's so bloody nice of me you know. *Applause*
No worries, I'll get over it.And this time, for real. Bump through the barriers!
Actually, I'm just sayin' all these cause i'm in a good mood today.
I might just start to dwell on the past whenever i see them together.
And start to be all emotional again. OH THIS IS LAME.
AHH. I have nothing more to say for now.
Toodles.
*你知道有些人不管多么如常，像空气一样在你的四周，你以为每天早晨睁开眼睛就能看见。可是，当他走了，比一场春雪化得还干净，一丝痕迹不留，你就真的....除了在梦里，再也见不到了。*
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